Against my will...

Right now all I wanna do is to do absolutely nothing for a long long long time.
But I can't.
Think I started to get worried when I got to know my deployment on Thur. Self foresees repeat of tortuous semester, racked with sleep deprivation and last-minute adrenaline rushes.
It's not good to be a perfectionist at times.
It's also equally unfeasible to possess no common sense and to lack organisational skills.

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Think all that worry is starting to crowd into my prayer life. I jus want my brain to shut down or to focus on brainless things.
I realise I start to slip when the going gets tough, when I should really get stronger.
Lord, I pray for strength, for more faith and trust in You...Help me in my weakness.

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